The lost children of unforgettable supermen

I know that no one will be interested in this subject…so don't waste your time by reading all this…it's boring…but I need to remind myself that I may find a cure for my illness…and that a new path may be opened for me after January 16.

It was one of the best shows I have ever seen in my entire life… "CNN Heroes: An All-Star Tribute"…a flawless show dedicated to the humanity of the new century…presented by two of the most respectable and well known news reporters Anderson Cooper and Christina Amanapure…a beautiful night to celebrate the endangered pure spirit of all human species…to cherish goodness and wisdom which was once a major character that differentiated us from other living beings...a night that gave me a purpose to live…and hope for a brighter future.

Samples of extraordinary human beings were presented to honor them for their passionate work …for their continuous effort to try and make this world a better place…presented through many categories including Championing Children: extraordinary commitment to the welfare of young people, Community Crusader: creating solutions to a local problem or social issue, Defending the Planet: innovative efforts to preserve and protect the environment, Fighting for Justice: advancing the cause of civil or equal rights, Medical Marvel: dedication to the enhancement of human health, Young Wonder: outstanding achievement by a person under the age of 18…merged with supurb musical performances by artists like Mary J. Blige, Sheryl Crow, Wyclef Jean, Norah Jones and presentations from stars like Tyra Banks , Glenn Close and Rosario Dawson.

It was like the Nobel Prize but for ordinary people…one of them was Pat Pedraja…a 12 years old boy who suffers from leukemia and who decided to travel the country to encourage people to register for bone marrow donation…another one was Wesley Audrey, the famous New York subway hero…and Heroes Hero was of course Superman Christopher Reeve and his wife…who devoted their lives to find a cure for paralysis…we all know that there are other heroes scattered around the globe…and that you and I could be a hero one day…and that is why this show gave me a kind of motivation…a motivation to live.

Watching Christina Amanapure interviewing the winners in the American Museum of Natural History with prehistoric animals in the background decorating the scene gave me a symbol …a symbol to tell us that if we don't have everyday heroes…we might end in an awful destination like our fellow dinosaurs.

After the show I went to my balcony and looked to the sunrise while listening to U2's "When I look at the World"…it was 6 am in Cairo-can't believe to wake up at 4 am just to watch a show…but what a show…this show was by far one of the most important shows in television history…I was moved to tears as I was thinking how useless I am…how many days and years I have wasted just to do things for my own good…how selfish I am…I thought the world has gone crazy…but this is not true…it is time to forget the Oscars…Golden Globe…Grammy's and all these stupid awards ceremonies...lets look to our real role on this planet…to serve the humanity…and underline this new dimension of self-satisfaction.

I can't describe how I feel right now…I wish I could write the list of things I would like to do in this world to make a difference…but a good intention is not enough…I know my words seem to sound a little bit too general…too artificial…too quirky…but as I said before…I am somehow ill…and I can't think right now…nobody will understand what I really mean…back then in my early posts I had the ability to focus on a subject and talk about it…but now I am somehow confused…yeah…hmmm…how should I help people…or be a good person in this world…and I am stuck in a place and time called nowhere…I believe that goodness is a natural element of the human spirit…it is not just for god…it is also for happiness…to feel that you have done something wonderful…but…(sigh)…there are a lot of "but(s)" here…well…the world is ugly…it is a shiny fact…(sigh)…you know…January 16 - a day that supposed to be a turning point in my life - is freaking me out...I should call this day the day of the big question mark…and the answer is not now…it is in the afterworld…if there is one.

written by walladshab

7 December 2007